I knew i had PND when alice may was about 6 weeks old but i didnt tell my HV although she had her suspisions until alice was about 4 months i think.

I was so upset all the time and i felt very panicky and had bad anxiety when ever i went any where
it was so bad sometimes i couldnt breathe and i always though people where talking about me and saying i was a bad mother!!

i lost all interest in the house and hated being in it..so i would be out all day at sure start or pnd groups or just walking round town so i didnt have to come home

i hate remembering about the dark times really as i had many of these
so glad im feeling so much better....hope i can help people in the future with pnd or anxiety/panic attcks as well

My HV suggested i did the edinburgh scale which i failed miserably on!!
she then suggested i had regular visits from her..twice a week for a few months.
then i was refered to a pnd support group whcih i attended for over a year
I also had cognetive behaviuroal therapy CBT which worked wonders
im also on antidepressants and have been for over 2 1/2 years.
I wont be able to come of them for a while yet as last year i had very bad thoughts(which im not going into on here) twice so my doctor advises me to stay on them until my thyroid is stabalized as this has also added to my depression
HTH louxx

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I was a mental health worker and had gone back to work when adam was 4wks old[I know dont ask] then when christmas night we went to stay at my mums and I felt like a caged animal couldnt sleep and just paced the room all night..still didnt quite realise what ws going I was just low and couldnt work out why. Then in the feb I realised things were really getting on top of me when I was driving over the runcorn bridge and I thought if I drove off the side now how would I feel and I realised I wouldnt be bothered. Thats when I knew I had to leave work to sort myself out, unfortunately it just opened a can of worms that I had spent years repressing.

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I knew something wasnt right as I didnt bond straight away and felt really down and lost interest in everything so I spoke to my hv and she confirmed it was PND. Although 3 years on im still sufferirng from it but its not been diagnosed as depression not PND

Mine is also now depression and not pnd as im now being treated for hypothyroidism which can make the person severly depressed or bipolar

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Thankyou for sharing - i think it may help some people to understand

no worries and i hope it does help someone

im thinking when im off my antidepressants totally to use my experiance to help others in some way
whevere volunteering at homestart or something similar
or i might think about doing a counselling course..ideas at the moment though!!

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another who was origianally diagnosed with PND and I was self harming and suicidal when Adam was 12mths was diagnosed as severe and anduring anxiety and depression with post traumatic stress disorder.

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^ Wow. How are you feeling now?

I've had depression in the past and know the signs. I was on anti D's before i got pregnant with soppy and obviously stopped them.

I had a back injury caused by my epidural which stops me doing alot of things and i realised i wasnt feeling right. I was getting anxious all the time, panic attacks and really horrible dreams. I filled out a questionaire at my drs and thought i had mild depression. Turns out its pretty bad and they put me on anti d's again.

I dont like taking drugs so i am trying other methods, including cognitive behaviour therapy. Im back at the drs this afternoon as my depression seems to have taken on another twist including memory loss.

Sam x

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gl with cbt i tried that last year but the counsellor said he couldnt help me and i had to go back to the docs to be referred somewhere else, still waiting now. keep chasing up the doc hes referred me but waiting on the counsellors to get back to me.

i dont like taking drugs either and 1 lot really messed with me made me really hyper and i was up and down like a yoyo!

im going through a stage lately having panick attacks especially at night and its really scary, im waking up feeling like im choking and or suffocating cos i cant breathe then im too scared to go back to sleep incase it happens again.