Hi ladies, so thought while I have 2 mninutes would give you all a wee update. Will warn you though it is a bit of a rant and a need for a shoulder to cry on
Things were getting really bad with both girls feeding. We have tried eveything you al suggested. But both girls are so exhauusted after about 20 minutes they have only taken 25mls. Yesterday we spoke to teh midwife and she wanted to speakto Wishaw general about them.
I broke my heart waiting to hear what she would say and yes you guessed it we ended up back in Wishaw.
They chekced Abbie first, and she was not maintaining her temp too well. So they warmed her up, but she was so lethargic. The Dr came in and was doing drop test etc, and NADA from Abbie. It was obvious she was getting admitted. Katie fared batter and they let us feed her. We used the glass bottles and teats that you can only get in hospital. She fed really well - well good for her. So looks like she is gettingexhausted using the teats and hence why the lethargy. We have to just use the wee glass bottles and teats from the hospital in the meantime - steralise them but not tell anyone heheeheh. She still struggles to take the full feed for me, but with Neil about she seems to take the rest between us.
Abbie on the other hand has been kept in. Her oxygen saturation levels keep dropping, and although once warmed up she came back to life a little and fed really well. They are running blood and urnine cultures to rule out an infection. She has been moved to a seperate room just in case.
She is on antibiotics and in there for at least 48 hours. No rooms for us to stay so the wee soul is in there on her own.
Now for my dilema! Katie still not feeding great, Abbie in neo natal, I'm not allowed to drive and have to be in all day for the midwife checking me and Katie over, and Ella at Drs as I write with another chest infection (her 3rd since new year). None of the girls getting to spend any time with me - hardly even seen Ella in over a week - maybe about 5 hours in total!. My BP still very high which every time someone checks it, I worry I will be readmitted.
See what I mean ladies - a bit of a rant. I am exhausted and emotionally wrung out. The guilt is killing me - I was almost on my knees begging the Dr to take the twins out early the day before it all happened.
Oh should also add in, have discovered that my wedding ring, signet ring that parents bought me for going to High school, and gran's wedding ring ( which was the only thing I got when she died, and have been wearing since) have all been lost. I was wearing them when went into hospital, and as they decided to do the emergency section they had tocome off. Contact lenses were nearly geting taken out, but had no glasses with me so they agreed to allow them to remain. Anyway, gave them to Neil, and in the chaos of the night - him getting changed twice etc, we have lost them.
Have got everything crossed for wee Abbie, and that things settle down soon.
Thanks for "listening" ladies.
xx
