Hiya Kristie & welcome
I'm Louise, mommy to 3 boys (5, 2.5 & 1)..... I'm sorry to hear your predicament. It must be an awful situation to be in. On the 1 hand you love him but you cannot relax for fear of when he is going to drink again. It must be so frightening having the kids around though & never knowing if he may turn violent or not. I would urge you to get some help. Maybe from a doctor or Health Visitor.
Good luck hun, I hope everything works out for you xxx